Note.

THE LAST NOTE BEFORE I MOVE ON.

I admit that I have been hella crazy. I am impulsive and young. I want to do things and finish them immediately. Because I felt this life would be such a  waste if I let things pass easily on me. The root of these feelings has been known and it has changed my life 360 degrees. There were things I’d like to do that I wasn’t allowed to. There were things I wanted to have but was never given to me easily.

I thought I’d never be envious about anything and for anything because I knew I have been provided with what I needed and chose what I want to keep. I thought it was as easy as that,  but at certain point I cannot just can’t deny it anymore, I felt it too. All along I thought I was strong but I am not. Little did I know that this is going to happen. I never thought that in exchange for not asking for anything in return would be THIS ( why would I be writing this in the first place, right?. Enough already since I've had the same event over and over again. And I kept on holding on but the rope is too loose to hold on because no one’s on the other end. I kept on praying to put things back and tighten the rope but all I got were the feelings of frustration and despair. I needed my people to help me move on. Yes I did. But I am being haunted with negativity. I missed those people who have been a part of my past even at present because that’s how I was as a friend. I just don’t let go of the person that has been so close to my heart. But oh well, we cannot tie our hands with them, glued on each other and not let them go if they wanted to. They have brains and desires also. I am just one of those people also who just love to find someone/somebody/a bunch of people perhaps whom I can call a bestest-friend(s), a buddy/buddies or any nickname you call it. Perhaps, I’ve labeled more than 10 persons already but they’re on their own ventures now. Some I still got in touch with, some am still able to reach out without any questions or with whom I am not ignored or what, some of them just forgot to look for my number and where they can reach me. But thanks to Facebook and other social networking sites, communication is inevitable at times haha. I mean for me, because I’d really buzz/ poke/chat with you if I see your name online. If there was one thing that I can ask for about this kinda mess that has happened already, that would be, not to forget me/don't ignore me. At least. Nothing feels horrible than being ignored. Well that is for me.

It hurts but that’s reality. People come and go. You cannot always ask them to keep in touch if they don't feel it. They just go. I sound like referring to one person, do I? But I am not. But, You, might be just one of those people that I am referring to since you've reach this far. This note is too long haha.  I believe we can still remain as friends...

Because,

Even though we change and we’re all finding our own place in the world, we all know that when tears fall or the smile spreads across our faces, we’ll come to each other because no matter where this crazy world takes us, nothing will ever change so much to the point where we’re not still friends.

Ah! Promises between us guys have not changed. I am still here. I am still your friend. We are best of friends and we are bound to be in each other’s hearts. I still love you though we may not be hanging out a lot, you may be out with another group of friends and acquaintances, I am still here. Anywhere. I’m just a text away, one call away, one message away and we’re set to sit in a coffee table and chit chat.

But for now, just like you guys and friends, I have to move on also and get a life since I’ve lost you for now.

Please be safe, have a great life && keep in touch??! :)

I’ll wait to the day we meet again :J

I miss you guys and thanks for everything. I love you.

Indilie Says:

"You're a heck of a TRANSFORMER"

 I say. Yah right.

A very touching korean drama

Pure Love a.k.a 49 days

I love this Korean drama so much. I've cried and soaked my tshirts watching this korean drama on Primetime on ABS-CBN. I may not be so knowledgeable of what it's really about but all I can say is that I think Shin Ji Hyun and I have quite the same attitude. I can really see myself in her. Happy go lucky, friendly and joyful. It's just that she has everything when it comes to wealth, friends and loved ones. Her 49 days as a soul traveler taught me a lesson I needn't really say because if I put it in words, I'd be the worst dramatic person with emotional instability already. haaaayyy.

this man!!! Jung Il Woo, I really have a great feeling that he used to be an ullzzang :) he looooooks sooooo fine and handsome to me :)

Anyways...I'm pretty much preoccupied these days which is really good. I am helping out my mama and mamane on their business and I am enjoying every day I spend at the shop. Finally my mama and mamane are working on their dream. I will continue to wish them all the best in life, good health and wise attitude. I love them both :)

I also got my LAST PAY today. I did not expect the amount I just received. I immediately deposited the money on my account since I do not want to spend on anything yet. I have lots in my mind but i am controlling my impulsiveness because I want to save up. Who knows, maybe this coming December I'll get what I've longed to have. OKAAY. I CAN WAIT :)

goodnight,

maria

one of my powershots

Lazy Monday

Staying in the house like bum. Studies my notes and at 6 pm sharp, my brain is once again loaded with a lot of ideas. I started up thinking about posing for the cam again. I'm gonna be wearing an ordinary sando, ordinary khaki shorts, Mario D'Boro sandal and an ordinary stripe polo which I got from my mama's closet.

Looks like I'm heading to the office and do some paper works. I wish it's more polished and nice. But I love looking how plain it is. But somehow it matched.

I Cannot Copy and Save My Photos in the CD

I am extremely frustrated already because I think the computer's about to crush already from too much pictures on it. Pictures I took and dumped then on folders. The computer's running slow I think. And it is actually. So I was thinking, maybe there's a need for me to buy an external hard drive already. but omeggash! Okaaii it's really expensive. I cannot just buy a cheap one and figure out it's not going to last anyway. NO! I must buy a reliable external drive. GOSH! I can really see myself ranting now because I am mad. Sorry guys.

IDEAS!
Yes I have a few here. Take time to read eh? haha

1. I was thinking for three days straight already, I think, of making a dress/ designing a dress out of a newspaper. NICE IDEA? 
2. I am curious about studying DESIGN on my own. IS THAT POSSIBLE??
3. nothing. staying focus on my review.

tsssshh! I am breaking my imagination right at this very moment. I need to prepare for an exam. I think it would be better to list my plans and review it again after a month or two.

the list consists of

-Studying DESIGN

-Studying PHOTOGRAPHY

(for this...I believe there are books available to learn the basic...I need basic ideas...)

-Apply for a job. So that when I get the money I could save up for a camera and buy myself a NIKON CAMERA....DREAM!!!

-Learn how to drive. I guess I need to process my temporary the day after I take the examinations

---and a lot more... the list goes on everyday. Because that's what I do each day, THINK of some things to do.

but for now. I'm sleepy...I'm gonna sleep now..

before I go...here's one thing I just wanna share to ya'll

mag-gotch na ko! @jdshfjhdjhtkjidjsj!~

super roller-coaster like emotions coming in and eating me up! bwechet!

STILL MAD at the computer and the CD WRITER!

Piso Piso Piso Equals Three Pesos

Went to  Gaisano-Capital-Danao to shop for our tindahan. Total price was P3,000 plus. Yes, we have a sari sari store that my mama dear put up for extra income. My mom is a great Businesswoman. One of the great businesswomen I know and I give my total support for it. She's my idol also. 

So there, we went to Gaisano to shop. After paying the total amount a packer approached me and told me to go with him and claim a something at the Customer Service Center. I was like " Oh! Okay..." So I went and made 5 spins. I was first given with a Lucky-Me-Noodle chicken flavor. hahaha, dandaraaan...then I was asked to pick a rolled paper thrice. To my surprise, I saw  1 Purefoods DRESSED CHICKEN, another 1 Purefoods DRESS CHICKEN and 2 LUCKY ME BEEF FLAVOR NOODLES. And I only had to pay 1 peso for each item. OKAY DIBA??! hahah Where in the world will you be able to get a dressed chicken for only 1 peso. I felt lucky ha. :)

and today is a great day. I got to attend a Durano Reunion. A mini reunion with some of my this-is-the-first-time-i-met-you auntie/lola/uncles :) SO FUN. Love how we just all collide despite the age gap :) 

LUCKY and HAPPY= so BLESSED. THANKS PAPA GOD :) Tomorrow I will visit your place with my family :) 

I love you! 

Rest in Peace Mr. Steve Jobs and THANK YOU SO MUCH!

APPLE OFFICIAL WEBSITE

 Steve Jobs. The Man Behind Apple is truly a genius. He has changed people's lives over the years of his existence. 

I am left hanging in a thought that I just knew about him only recently or that was a week before his death while I was looking out for some videos in youtube. So it's really saddening news to hear that he passed already. Gosh! It must be so hard for all his followers. But from what I have read, anyone who was with him was never disappointed. They were all thankful because Mr. Jobs is a great mentor. I used to experience having a mentor when I worked in a call center company, so I am now imagining, WHAT IF? WHAT IF I WAS ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE WHO WERE ABLE TO WORK WITH HIM? WHAT IF HE WAS MY MENTOR ALSO? ONE THING HERE: THAT'S A BIG THING. VERY BIG THING!!!!!! 

I now have  a photo of him posted i had from a newspaper together with an article. And I want to keep it. I want to buy his biography book because I believe someone is trying to make a book about him now. Naah! I know it will cost a lot, but I am so inspired right now. He made me realize that to gain something, it takes hardwork, focus and love :)

THANK YOU SO MUCH Mr. Steve Jobs!!! :)

Small Dreams and Big Dreams

I believe I have both.

Ever since I lived I knew dreams were already poured on me and that my parents had wished for me already. Some of them they share, most of them kept inside them. I'm ambitious and a dreamer. I dream of making great things out of little things.

This blog may have been written with a lot of rants but seriously I just wanna be heard an understood. hahahah!

I just love expressing everything in words may it be in  a form of a blog, song, poem or whatnot.

I dream of practicing my profession someday ( I'm a nurse) but I haven't been able to get my license yet, that;s why I am struggling these days.

I wanna be able to travel my favorite places

Take numerous pictures of the amazing things

WILD DREAMS

Make BAGS?

Make SHOES?

Make MOVIES?

Record

pwede magcelebrity? tsssssk.

I can really say how lucky celebrities are because they have a very firm support and budget if they do want to do something. Since I am not a celebrity, I wish I can find a job, get paid, have the budget then to  START DOING THINGS EXACTLY THE WAY I WANT.

OH AS A LIFE ADVOCATE I REALLY WANT TO: 

Very Big Dreams:

A Doctor

be a part of a foundation ( for children, pets)

be able to compose a song about life

make an ad/ commercial about loving life, loving pets, taking care of self and stuffs life that

 I dream of making an organization to protect youth, animals and people from harm. I dream of being heard because I have a lot to say to what's going in this world. I may have not been given the strong source of publicity but through this blog, somehow, with little or less readers than others do, I can contribute to change. I couldn't focus on it yet because I am still struggling for something very big. 

 I wish I could help the advertisers reach out to a lot of people especially on great finds, great organization, volunteers and all the good things in life. 

THIS WEBSITE IS THE INSPIRATION OF THIS ENTRY:

MY AD COUNCIL

i couldn't stop it, my imagination won over me.

1st Ever Cebu Korea Day

WHOAH!!!

The event made me breathless! From shouting to howling to shouting again, there's nothing else I can do but shout my heart out. I just love KPOP that I can forget the whole crowd behind me. Just as long as I am facing the stage watching all the cover groups and aspiring KPOP stars perfom, OMG. SPEECHLESS. I simply don't care about the people pass me anymore. So that kept me wondering, how will I be when the moment arise and that I'd see the real KPOP IDOLS performing on the glittery stage and face to face? hahahha I DON'T KNOW. I don't know for sure! 

So there, the 1st part of the 1st Cebu Korea Day happend already yesterday, September 30, 2011 at the Ayala Terraces headed and funded by Cebu Korean Association, Inc. There were numerous grand finalist who left the audience at awe after each perfomances. Heres the complete list:

1. Jean Rachel Sy (Solo)

2. Kelvin Villanueva (Solo)

3. Rayn Jezreel C. Romero (Solo)

4. Angelique M. Caballo (Solo)

5. Kim Sung Hyun & Kang Boram (group)

6. Queens Rhythm

7. Jennifer P. Olayvar - (Solo)

8. Danica Gequillo (Solo

9. Shamae

10. Say A!

11. Generation Next

12. Rainbow Angels

13. Be_4

14. Mirine

15. D.I.P. Crew

16. Saeni

17. AIAS2

18. scene - E

and the 1st ever Cebu Kpop Star title holder is Generation Next. They danced to the tune of Girls' Generation " Genie ". 

Generation Next

And then...I got to meet one of the great groups to do a cover of a KPOP group and that's OFF LIMITS CREW. They danced well and I like them.

I can really see a bright tomorrow for Cebu Korea Day! I admire those people who gave importance to KPOP here in Cebu. And special thanks to all the Big Bosses who planned and headed Cebu Korea Day!!! :)

I can feel no regret that I fell in love with Korean Pop!

I simply love KPOP aside from OPM and American Pop. 

THUMBS UP!

And as an evidence...Here are a couple of shots taken by a talented photographer of the night and my good friend Chona a.k.a Amber Ma. She really looks like AMBER of F(X) you know! hahahahah! OH OH! I also met new found kpop lover friends! Here's their page before I post my pictures, check it out and join us! :)PerF(X)tion Cebu. 

The stage

I think there are tons of ramen inside to be given out to the contestants. Not sure, kk~

Cebuanos Support Korea Day!

Cebu Kpop Star Finalists

Me on stage, grabbing the moment  and asked  Ma to take a pic of me with a screen behind me saying it  really Cebu Korea Day

This is Aron of OFF LIMITS. CUTIE PIE!!!!!!

Two members of Generation Next. I'm sorry I could not name them. I'm not the familiar yet but let me name SNSD..GAME?

New found friends Perf(x) cebu. Ma AHA KA????? SHE TOOK this pic by the way

So that's it for the event. OCTOBER 1 is the official Cebu Korea Day. Awesome treats. MEHN! I LOVE KOREA- CEBU CORPO!