Let's help Caroline!

Caroline is my friend in highschool whose child was diagnosed with heart disease and had undergone surgeries. Now their hospital bills has reached 300K. Let's help her in our own little ways.  Please click the link below for complete details about their situation and the baby's status. 

#support #fundraising 

My page is on a public settings so I am using hashtags for social optimization purposes ( i have learned why hashtags existed so I am using it now, too, as this is really something serious and needs your attention too! )  hoping it will help in reaching out to people who can help. Hoping hoping hoping! With crossed fingers! 

Please search for Reyboy Rubin Gudmalin if you have decided to help in this fundraising. He can give you his bank account number, they are going to consolidate all collections weekly.

Please also click on my facebook, click on the Link i have included on my post.

Every cent counts :]

 Here's a photo I took through my phones screenshot to show you the current condition Jan, Caroline De La Rama's lil one.

Please go to www.gofundme.com searcg for Jan Stephan's Fund for TOF by Caroline De la Rama. Thank you.

How are you as a Grown up?

Me?

Wow! I couldn't even describe it, but you as a reader, if you can help me figure out the right term for it then that would be great! 

Ever since I graduated college, I had the mind set that I am going to do what I want to do and that my mother won't be able to question me anymore because I have finished college and I just followed what mothers commonly say to adults like me then, " You can do whatever you wanna do after you graduate". 

Great! I can sense freedom! 

We always ask for freedom! 

FREEDOM! 

After graduation, I did not let time pass without doing anything, I was not like any other kid that stayed at home and did not know what to do with their lives. I looked for a job right away. And I got hired away too! I was free to do what I wanted to do. I went to the luxurious bar, gimmicks bars, drunk and partied like there was no tomorrow on weekends. As the saying goes " work hard, play hard, party harder!" I went to some of the places I wanted to go. #YOLO MOMENTS again! 

And even so I did not practice Nursing at this time yet. I did something worthwhile. I have felt I was responsilble of myself wherever I go which was a great deal of responsibility for me. But what hurts the most is being told by people who rarely know what you like and what you've been through that you do not have a direction and you don't know what you're doing. Let me ask you this for those of you who have asked me that, have you achieved you dreams, are you even practicing your profession. What are you doing right now? 

We all have different things happening in our lives. We have things we want to achieve but can't because of certain circumstances. As in my case, during my elementary to highschool days I was a part of every dance troupe that was formed wherever I am. Whether it be at school or even in our small barangay in Forest Drive Village. Then college came, I was diagnosed with Mitral Valve Regurgitation. Such a bad news, it doesn't allow me to do any strenous activity. I wasn't allowed to dance anymore. I couldn't even run as fast as I did before. I used to be part of a Track in Field team. I won before. Little did I know that I had something that wasn't diagnosed yet. I wanted to join sponsored Run or Marathons but I couldn't. I wanted to join a dance team. An official one where I can pursue my passion for dancing and music. Worst!  My doctor wouldn't even allow me to work in the hospital to practice my profession if I passed the board exam. That was one thing that actually frustrates me everytime I take the board exam. It boggles my mind that I couldn't even practice what was taught to me, what I worked hard for in college. The only thing that was left of me to do was to stay at home and rest and let my body not feel any kind of stress at all. But I still chose to work, I had to convince my doctor that I was fine and that I can manage. So with my mother's consent. I got the paper signed and worked. That was the only sense of freedom that was left of me. Atleast I had the permission to work. 

So it's almost 10 years now since I was diagnosed with this heart disease and the only thing that is going to cure this is through a surgical operation. 

I had been to a series of depression cycle. Mild to borderline. From being paranoid to feeling down. 

I pity myself. There are a lot of things I wish I could do. Sometimes I tend to break the rules just to explore more. What a bittersweet life.

As I face everyday, the more I am taught with lessons that I need to learn. There are also things that I learned from other people. I was given a chance by our Father to do some of the things that I loved to do without giving me any bad consequences. Thank God!!! I was given freedom by my family but a lil reminder shouldn't hurt because it is just for my own good. I know that I am just trying so hard. Trying to be okay. Who wants to be sick anyway? But I want to be masked with Positivity if I had to pretend and play fine. I chose to be with Positivity other than anything else. 

As a grown up now, as I am on my late 20's, thank God I reached this age even though my heart has something in it. I have learned that life can twist you, fool you, teach you, hurt you, and turn it all around to lessons and worthy lessons that you'll need to be fully equipped and be strong. We are vulnerable. Admit it! 

I am thankful for what I have, something that I have overlooked before. And for the people who have stayed and look out for me and you know who they are. It's our Family. I am so much thankful for my Family. I thank God for the wonderful blessings He has bestowed and provided us with. I am also thankful for my life and all the lessons I have learned for the past years ( since the day I started to understand things when I was little) Hahaha! 

Being a grown up with my kind of condition is hard. You will never understand people who are sick if you're not sick. There are too many things to consider. To many to adopt and understand. We all are different in our own right. We just need to be responsible enough to get through everything, undertstand our situation, accept the things for which we are and ofcourse with love,faith and passion, we will all just get through everything.

xoxo,

MK

Quotes and Sayings from Facebook.

These images and graphics have helped me look into the brighter side of everything. During the time I was down and hurt and felt that some of my friends had been real to me. I think I can only count my true friends with my 5 fingers in one hand. That's for real. And if it turns down to 1 then I guess that's how it is supposed to be. There's really less real people these days. Almost all of them are up for something :(. It's they get something from you or they ignore you and find someone else they can benefit from. Even those people who have said bad about my friends are doing the same shit! Using people and talking about them but they don't know to themselves they're also doing it to others even to me! And for that... FCUK U!!!!!

OKAY! ENOUGH! ENOUGH! Because I had enough already!

The sad thing is, this is happening to me! I really can't take the fact that this is happening to me! But I guess it happens to someone's life at some point. No wonder these quotes exist. So, I am not alone. I will surpass this! I know there's still goodness at people in some way. Nobody is perfect. 

I just hope that people will be kinder to each other and be real. 

From this day onwards.

It's about friendship blues.

Days had passed and the thoughts has been haunting me. It's a mind boggler! I hate to think about it! It occurs everyday! I cannot deny it no more! I hate feeling this way. 

I miss my bestfriends!

But they don't miss me nor like me at all. Why? They  never replied to my texts and facebook messages. They're all left ignored. 

I no longer have a bestfriend nor a single friend from work :( and it sucks that workplace was the last place I've stayed for almost two years and now we all tear up! :( 

Aside from missing my bestfriends, other friends keep hurting me. They're always making changes on their plans. One time they wanna go out and changes their plans only to keep me hanging. Only to see they're out with someone else. :( and without me getting mad at them. At all. Should I just get mad? If I did, I would have lost all my friends even if I had just known them for a week or a month. 

I have totally stretched my patience for all these people but all they gave me are disappointments and ignorance to my feelings!! :( 

Friends are distractions now?

If that's the case, then I should just stop! I do not want to talk to anyone anymore! :( 

I hate this feeling! I couldn't even tell anyone anymore. I also figured in the past that I have a lot of friends who share my secrets to other people, they talk about me. They're nice when they face me but definitely talk bad about me when I am not with them. 

I cannot trust anyone anymore! I'm losing hope at people. I'm losing the interest of keeping friends! 

But even though I feel like this, I will try my best to seek goodness in every new person I meet. It shouldn't be this way. I will pray always that I will no longer meet people who would hurt me, bash me, belittle me and ignore me. 

I will seek help to the Holy Father. 

Good Morning! 

Things that are currently running in my head!

There are so many things on my mind right now. Things that I do not want to write but I can't help, I just have to because this is my way of letting it out of my mind or else it might just explode. This may sound too much, but this is how I really feel right now. Please excuse me for being like this at this moment.

Love.

I know that I am so full of love. 

The love and guidance I get from our Holy Father from above. The love I am getting from my Mama and Mamane and the sisterly acts and love from my brother, ofcourse! We may not be as vocal but I can feel the love within the Family. Hey! That should fairly be enough! But why am I posting this? 

It's about being unwanted and being unimportant outside of the house. 

Sure we get the treatment we're given by our relatives but what about from friends? 

No! Never fair! Never unconditional. And I am aware that I am creating my own problems. I grew up well, I was raised the best way my Mama and Mamane can. Apart from that I was nurtured from my environment because I myself, know that I observe a lot. I believe that yes, we are where we live, we are what we see, we are what we read, we are what we eat. They also say, show me your friends and I 'll tell you who you are. I insist. I am not who my so called " friends" are. I am not.

I have met a lot of people already. From my gradeschool to highschool, college and work. I have met different kinds of people. I have been exposed to a lot of different practices good and bad. I have seen the worst and the best moments of everyday in every place I go. I have also gained good friends, loyal friends, friends who used me and took my kindness with abuse. I have met people who have not believed in what I can do. I have met people who have believed I am great that I can do almost anything I desire to do just like how my Mama and Mamane thinks of me.

Let's say, Yes! I do have these so-called friends! Some have stayed and communicated through texts it's because I text them first. Some have streamed over my facebook account and still communicated through chats like I do to them because it is the least communication that we can do to maintain the friendship we have started. But more then a hundreds have moved on with their lives and didn't check on me but I still check out on them. I have met girls whom I ended up treating them like a sister of my own. Then there goes the next few lines of why I am posting this up! 

I don't have a biological sister. I do have a brother. I am the type who have wished I had a sister whether it be older or younger. Most of those I have met were younger than me so I treated them like a little/ younger sister. Where I'd feel like I am totally responsible for them outside their house. I take the job as my own. Voluntarily.

I end up hurting especially when they move on with their lives and I'd feel as thought they have forgotten me and what we used to have. Aside from treating them as a sister and because they're from another mother, it's always going to be as though, they're your bestfriends. Because they aren't my sister.

I do feel bad when I try to reach out but don't get replies from the texts I send knowing that person would always have her phone with her. Just recently " seen " messages on facebook causes frustration to me! That person literally read my messages but did not mind to reply even a single hi or hello. Yes! It hurts! It hurts! It hurts! That feeling that occurs in me thinking I shouldn't have done it! I shouldn't have reached out! Those ex bestfriends that you speak to a lot before but rarely notice you this days but keeps on updating their facebook frustrates me even more! This frustration that I feel did not happen after one attempt of trying to reach out, no! It happened a lot of times. So many times I try to reach out but I get nothing! 

It's true! People will stick to you but leave you after they have gotten all the benefits they could get from you, also leave you when they no longer need you.

I hate that these things happened to me! I didn't know that being nice can lead you to so much frustration. Why do people do this? Why haven't I met people with loyal hearts? 

I am just thankful I have my family with me! I have learned to not care anymore for those people who have left me. I will look forward and attract good people and give my loyalty to people who will be loyal to me. 

I will focus on people who likes me and value me esp those people who look out for me. I will focus more on people who never took me for granted. I will focus on people who give love and care to me. I will have to build my walls for negative and heartless people.

Thank you Father for guiding me and leading me back to where my heart belongs.

Xoxo,

MK

I Support #NursesForChangeMovement

I have to say this had really caught my attention.

I am a graduate of Nursing. But I have to admit I am not yet a registered nurse just yet. I will have to retake and I will not stop until I become a Registered Nurse.

Since I am not yet a registered nurse I worked on call centers as Customer Service Representative/ Technical Support Representative. While exposed to the kind of work area I have met people of different profession from teachers to chemists, from biologists to nursing graduates. I have even met a Business Administration Professor. He was a  professor but the department closed that's why he applied to a call center. Aside from the reason that the department closed, they were paid less than what are due to them, he could not longer support his kids which is really sad. Nurses are no different from that situation. Nursing graduates do not complete their course without submitting a complete set of cases from the Clinical subject which they have paid buckets of money for. After graduating nurses are asked to volunteer. Volunteering means not being paid, at times they even pay the hospitals so they can get in. SAD SAD SAD. When they start working in a hospital they are not even paid well. They are assigned to so many patients, workloads and all. There are less nurses but so many patients. Nurses are not hired because there are no vacancies not even a job posting for it. If there is, they needed experience, there weren't any room for skilled new nurses, top notchers and achievers. So they switch to another profession, or simply apply to a call center. Most of them just stay at home waiting for calls if they got the job.

I found out that Mr. Carl Balita's movement. This  proposed movement really struck me this days. And once this one win and proper treatment are given to the Professional Registered Nurses, Nurses will come back into action and will never have to choose a job other than their profession and no one will have to work in a call center who graduated BSN and is a RN. I believe, too, just like any other profession, Nurses should be given importance. I have read that Mr. Carl Balita had doubts in the beginning that is because he is being judged that he may be  up for something. But he isn't. I must say that he may an entrepreneur but it's not always business. Sometimes, with our little knowledge especially for cases like this, protests and fighting for someone else's rights is not a joke.

DON'T MIND THEM SIR! You're doing a good job!!!!!!!! FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT!!!!!

I am writing a blog about this to raise an awareness that Mr. Carl Balita is in action right now for his fellow nurses.

Here are pictures I got from their official Facebook pages.

from: here NursesForChangeMovement and here carlbalitafull

And this Friday is an Official Day of Protest for this movement.

It's a BLACK FRIDAY on #October171014 #Nursesforchangemovement #Carlbalita #nurses #philippines

Nurses are known for wearing white and for always wearing white but on October 717, 2014 it will be a sea of black tees for this movement.

I support this movement for Nurses!

I just pray the government will also hear it.